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Sunday, August 31, 2014
Collaboration with Andrea in Aya's Moleskine Sketchbook
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Preparing envelope to mail Moleskine
Monday, August 25, 2014
Kissed Frankie goodnight
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Continuing work on Moleskine and Frankie and Noah have a Party
Saturday, August 09, 2014
The Swimmer Woman, the Sun-bathing Women and Me
The
Swimmer Woman, the Sun-bathing Women and Me
Out
past the end of the long, curved jetty at Pier Park, I watch a deeply tanned,
slender and beautiful young woman paddling a long red sea-kayak in from open
choppy, water and feel slightly envious of her lean, strong, attractive young
body.
I wander back around to
the central pier in front of the Community House. As I arrive at the observation platform, the
young woman with red sea kayak speaks from the water below to another woman on the
tower near me. The kayaking woman has an
accent, French, maybe. The other woman, the one on the observation deck, turns
to speak to two people around my age and tells them that they kayaker is part
of a team assisting a woman from Canada who is swimming 17 miles, ending here
at Pier Park. She, the speaker on the observation deck, is part of the
welcoming team for the swimmer. The
welcome lady points out to “sea,” far out on the lake. I follow the trajectory of her finger and see
another red sea kayak and a white motorboat next to each other. I cannot see the swimmer. The boats are guarding the swimmer from
motorboats. She is still probably a quarter of a mile out at this point.
The pretty kayaker heads back out toward the rest of the swim team.
A big boat, a ship, moves along behind the swimmer, but farther out.
As the assisting kayaker paddles
closer to the swim team, a fast-moving motor boat cuts between the swimmer and
the approaching sea kayak, closer than I would prefer,
I look through the
telescope and see the swimmer, a small bobbing orange head between the other
kayak, paddled by a man, and the motorboat. I feel a rising sense of
excitement for the woman and her team.
When I leave the observation tower, I see and old man and two children motoring
in the harbor. They pass me slowly in one of those inflatable raft boats. I am
deeply affected by their reflection, following them along the water, serene and
colorful, broken into tiny shards by the ripples. Suddenly,
I feel deeply alive, perhaps because of my
excitement over the arrival of the swimmer.
Teenage girls in tiny bikinis sunbathe on the docks. I weave among them to
reach the end of the dock. It seems as if to them, I am invisible. They
talk through me as if I were transparent or nonexistent. One of them has pale
green toe polish that matches her bathing suit. I carry
three cameras, but haven't taken a picture. I don’t want to point my camera at the girl with the green
toe polish, even though I find it intriguing.
Two women
sunning at the end of the dock talk about how motorcyclists should wear helmets
and how slick racing bikers should be more considerate. One lady says she
was riding a mountain bike and a racing biker almost blew her off the road, and
she says, "Piss off!" to the biker in a caustic tone. I miss
the next thing she says, but then she says, "Now that I know that it
annoys you, I'll do it all the more." She says she is “in
communications.” Her voice grates in my ear and heart. "I need
to find a voice register that people listen to," she says, and I
almost laugh aloud. "I don't give a
shit about kids, I hate them and I don't want to have anything to do with them,"
she continues. "Lose the PowerPoint and
distractions," she says, and the other woman says, "Simplicity
sells." The bitchy woman says, "I don't like redundancy." She says
likes Donald Trump and Howard Stern.
I eye the woman from the corner of my eye.
I cannot see her well. She wears
a bathing suit with pink flowers on green leafy background and lies on a low
chaise. She sounds acidic as she speaks. How terrible to sound like
that. I feel sorry for all the times I have sounded bitchy myself. If only I could be sweet and mellow and never
sound like that woman. But, sadly, I too often fail to be sweet and mellow.
The other woman says, "I help my clients by keeping it simple, creating
word pictures, and saying ‘if you don't do this, this is what will happen.’ I
explain the harm of procrastination.” She likes Donald Trump too, but
doesn't sound nearly as grouchy. Her
voice is sweet and pleasant, and she sounds sensible. She doesn’t know who Howard Stern is.
Standing at the end of the second longest pier, the straight one next to the
beach that ends at the opening from the harbor and boat wells, I see the two
red kayaks and motorboat who had accompanied the swimmer arriving around the
edge of the long curved breakwater pier, but where is the swimmer? There
she is. The two kayaks surround her, and
momentarily hide her. She’s headed for
the beach, doing
the crawl with strong arms and a strong, steady stroke. The
motorboat turns to the side, declining to head into the shallow water.
I
turn toward shore and peer sideways at the more pleasant of
the two women who were talking about helmets, communication, Donald Trump.
Her chin is tilted up, slightly. She has
a beautiful face, fine-featured and sophisticated, with dark curly hair. She
smiles cheerfully and her face lights up.
I don’t get a look at the crabby-sounding woman; she is behind me.
I imagine her looking cranky and sullen, then chastise myself for my judgmental
thoughts.
Quickly, I walk back
along the dock toward shore, dodging between the sunbathing teens, walking fast trying to
get to shore before the fast-moving swimmer.
A man walks by, maybe 28 or 30, wearing tight biker swim shorts. Love
handles hang over his suit all the way around. His face is agreeable
looking, he has a gentle, sweet voice talking to his kid, but he would look
better, to me, in the old, looser style bathing suit. Styles change, but why
do they so often, lately, seem to change for
the worse? I feel as judgmental and
bitchy as the woman at the end of the dock.
I race toward shore hoping to beat the
swimmer, watching her as I go. Up she comes!
The swimmer stands in knee deep water. She probably couldn't
swim well in such shallow water. She stumbles slightly. I worry she’s
exhausted. The kayakers close around her. I could take a picture . . . but
it would just be a picture of a woman standing
in the water, and from a distance. I take it anyway. She wears an orange
bathing cup. She walks easily up onto shore. I am relieved.
I walk across the beach toward her, trying to see her, but tall grasses hide
her from view. For once, I stride across the beach without looking for dead
fish, flotsam and jetsam and without watching the children at their castles and
games. Instead, I am interested in this woman who just swam 17 miles. She
comes around the grasses, turns and walks toward me, opening
the top of her wet suit and letting it hang down around her waist, revealing a
blue bathing suit. She doesn't look tired. She looks fresher than I feel. She smiles.
She is not young, as I’d imagined, but maybe 45 or 50. Grey at the temples.
Happy-looking. Excited for her, I smile with vicarious pleasure in her accomplishment. But as she approaches me, I say nothing. I want to
congratulate her, but she doesn't know me. I feel shy and invisible and
just watch as she passes, touched by her courage, strength and poise. Thursday,
August 7, 2014
Wednesday, August 06, 2014
Monday, August 04, 2014
On My Feet
Keith holds two of nine jars of sauerkraut I just made
They have beer bottles in the top for pressing them.
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I am on my feet for hours and hours. I am making sauerkraut again, cutting, chopping grinding red and green cabbage, carrots, parsnips, yellow and green squash, broccoli, cauliflower, blueberries, lemons. After I grind them, I beat them with as glass carafe until I am tired, and then I add salt, stuff them into nine jars, add weights and press them.
Then, there is a huge mess to clean up. Then I walk to the store for mushrooms and
other things I can’t grow. After that, I
stand at the counter cutting vegetables for dinner, and then I take a walk while
I am waiting for my husband to return from visiting his mother at assisted
living.
I am tired, but this, and the above, is not a complaint.
I was sick for so long, for over a year (and for many years
before that, to varying degrees). For a
year, I literally could not do anything.
Sometimes, I thought I would never recover. And I am not recovered, not entirely. But it is a miracle that I can stand for
hours and hours and do all that work. This
is not a complaint; it is a good thing, a thing to celebrate.
I think perhaps the raw sauerkraut helps. I don’t know this. But I seem to be feeling gradually better.
Here is a note for anyone contemplating making sauerkraut. My second to the last batch before this got
moldy. It was gross. I kept scooping the mold off, because supposedly,
the stuff in the juice is safe. But some
of the mold flavor carried over and I didn't like it. So I read up on how to prevent mold. This what I read: mix 1 teaspoon of salt in a cup of water and
add this just to the top of each jar.
That’s a pretty strong salt solution, and I was afraid it would make the
sauerkraut taste bad, but instead, it worked great. My whole last batch was the best batch I've
made yet. Hope the one I made today is
as good when it ferments.
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The finished sauerkraut (from the last batch) is a more uniform red color. |
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