Thursday, January 17, 2008

I hate the internet

The internet is a HUGE time sink.

Someone invited me to their poetry wall and I really didn't have time but I went anyway and spent a lot of time working on a poem and was watching my watch because I have all these other things I need to do and JUST WHEN I GOT IT DONE just the way I wanted, it disappeared--before I could save it.  I was so ANGRY and frustrated and felt like I HATED MYSELF and EVERYONE ELSE--mostly myself--because I didn't have the time to spend to begin with and I needed to do important crucial time sensitive things--like work on the adoption, shower, take Piano boy to his theory lesson etc, and I wasted time on something trivial.  It would have been somewhat LESS frustrating and upsetting had I not lost the poem I wrote, but it was the wrong time to do it and that was NO ONE'S fault but MINE.  I have ADHD and am very vulnerable to Internet time sinks.  I need to be MUCH more vigilant and maybe not even turn ON the computer at all.  GGGRRRRRRR!  I hate myself for being SO STUPID.  Over and over, I made the same mistakes.  I NEVER LEARN!

5 comments:

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

PS I got invited TWICE by two different people and it's not their fault, but mine. I actually LIKE magnetic poetry--when I have time to play.

coffeypot said...

That is one of the reasons I write any long spills in Word. Then I cut and paste. I don't trust the net that much and would hate to have somehting like that happen to me. So I cheat and use Word first.

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

That's why your posts are generally more articulate than many others!

This was a magnetic poetry gameboard sort of thing. Normally, I do write poetry on word, but I wanted to participate int his "game" with my friends.

Now my tirade--which wasn't aimed at them but me, probably has alientated them instead! WAHN!

coffeypot said...

See! And you thought I was smart. Nope!

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

Not smart and ignorant are two different things. :-D