I just wanted to say, in response:
My brain is a ball of interconnected wires. In the center of my ball of wires is a spherical space, and at the center of that space is . . . nothing.
It's a bit hard to get to through all those wires, but I can do it and sometimes do. Not nearly often enough. It's a lovely nothingness and in the center of it is sweet waking relaxation. Around the outside of the waking energetic nothing is a duller sort of nothing. I get trapped there sometimes, between the energy of action and the energy of nothing in a tired and blah nothing space.
My inner spherical nothing space is different than BB's nothing box. It's a more active sort of nothing, and electrical buzzing nothing. But a kind of nothing none the less.
When BB zones out into his nothing box, he usually falls asleep. Sleeping is his favorite activity in his nothing box and he does a LOT of that kind of nothing.
While he's sleeping on the couch, I stay alert--bzzzt, bzzt, bzzt, connecting my wires and buzzing with thoughts, plans, activities. Sometimes it's hard to level down to the sleep nothing or energy nothing. This may be why I have insomnia. I need more practice with navigating the levels of nothingness and properly inhabiting them.
It's a bit hard to get to through all those wires, but I can do it and sometimes do. Not nearly often enough. It's a lovely nothingness and in the center of it is sweet waking relaxation. Around the outside of the waking energetic nothing is a duller sort of nothing. I get trapped there sometimes, between the energy of action and the energy of nothing in a tired and blah nothing space.
My inner spherical nothing space is different than BB's nothing box. It's a more active sort of nothing, and electrical buzzing nothing. But a kind of nothing none the less.
When BB zones out into his nothing box, he usually falls asleep. Sleeping is his favorite activity in his nothing box and he does a LOT of that kind of nothing.
While he's sleeping on the couch, I stay alert--bzzzt, bzzt, bzzt, connecting my wires and buzzing with thoughts, plans, activities. Sometimes it's hard to level down to the sleep nothing or energy nothing. This may be why I have insomnia. I need more practice with navigating the levels of nothingness and properly inhabiting them.
2 comments:
Okay! So you're nuts. Take a pill.
YOU started it--posting that male brain female brain thing.
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